And what U've all been waiting for....
(((Much Love)))
con
Title: When the Road Beckons-- Letty's Journal, the Birth(follows Pt8 )
Author: Chesarae
Rating: NC-17 Overall, this Pt PG-13
Email: skymykel@excite.com
Category: Dom/Letty
Summary: My take on the what could have happened after the events of TFATF.
Archive: Just ask
Feedback: Feed Me!!!
Disclaimer: I don't own or claim rights to any of the characters or settings of TFATF. I only enjoy them...
Pts 1 thru 7 can be found at con's fic
Pt 8 at pub16.ezboard.com/funofficialvindieselfanclubfanfiction.showMessage?topicID=4923.topic
Well Journal, Im back again. This time my entry is possibly the most profound, the most adventurous of my life
Yesterday I gave birth to my very own little baby girl. I really, truly have no words to express my utter amazement. I mean, here I sit writein in this book of my heart, and yet I am expressing and not expressing how I feel in the same instant. Its likelife is suddenly this open book yet to be written. I feel like I have this clean slate with which to draw upon and I am so lost, but so filled with hope at the same time.
I am a MOTHER. I will now and forever be a mother. I hold in my hands the life of a perfect, beautiful being. I hold so much in these unsteady hands of mine and I know-- nothing
I feel as though a light has fallen upon my shoulders and I am blessed. I am blessed with the bliss of the future and the knowing that I have an un-trodden path ahead of me. Ive always heard that the roads we take lead us home and now I know it to be true.
I guess, Journal, you are wondering about that wonderful new life? Well, what do I have to say
Daytona Madison Rodriguez came into the world at 8:50 am Tuesday morning, July 25th, 2002. She weighed a whole 7 lbs and 18 ozs and was 19 inches long. She had the cutest darn clump of dark brown hair, and her little toes and fingersthey just amazed me to no end. But-- what really got me, way down in the pit of my stomach, was when she opened those big beautiful eyes to me .
Her eyes opened and looked at me for the very first time and I saw myself there. I saw trust and wonder and love all balled into one-- staring right into my soul. --I saw something that I cant quite put into words
--And so here I am just lost in these new emotions and just so full of lust for living.
Also though, there is that that which I knew would come-- the guilt the total heart-wrenching anguish. All this that I feel-- I have stolen from Dom. I took away his chance to see his 1st born come into the world. Even more, I took away the knowledge of just simply knowing he has a child.
But at the same time-- I didnt know what else to do? I mean, what-- what was I supposed to do? I was afraid, so afraid of his reaction. But I knew in my heart that nothing could ever turn him against me. Nothing-- except this
Will he be able to forgive me? Will he ever? Oh God, what have I done? Ive gone and really messed things up havent I?
Im gonna lose him. I dont wanna lose him God. I dont . I cant tell him, maybe not ever. They say what you dont know wont hurt you Maybe its true
But then-- Id never see him again. My fear is just talking out my ass here. I have only to overcome my fear and all will be right. It can be right
I am gonna make it right and when I doDom will be waiting
.Waiting for me
TBC
(((Much Love)))
con
Title: When the Road Beckons-- Letty's Journal, the Birth(follows Pt8 )
Author: Chesarae
Rating: NC-17 Overall, this Pt PG-13
Email: skymykel@excite.com
Category: Dom/Letty
Summary: My take on the what could have happened after the events of TFATF.
Archive: Just ask
Feedback: Feed Me!!!
Disclaimer: I don't own or claim rights to any of the characters or settings of TFATF. I only enjoy them...
Pts 1 thru 7 can be found at con's fic
Pt 8 at pub16.ezboard.com/funofficialvindieselfanclubfanfiction.showMessage?topicID=4923.topic
Well Journal, Im back again. This time my entry is possibly the most profound, the most adventurous of my life
Yesterday I gave birth to my very own little baby girl. I really, truly have no words to express my utter amazement. I mean, here I sit writein in this book of my heart, and yet I am expressing and not expressing how I feel in the same instant. Its likelife is suddenly this open book yet to be written. I feel like I have this clean slate with which to draw upon and I am so lost, but so filled with hope at the same time.
I am a MOTHER. I will now and forever be a mother. I hold in my hands the life of a perfect, beautiful being. I hold so much in these unsteady hands of mine and I know-- nothing
I feel as though a light has fallen upon my shoulders and I am blessed. I am blessed with the bliss of the future and the knowing that I have an un-trodden path ahead of me. Ive always heard that the roads we take lead us home and now I know it to be true.
I guess, Journal, you are wondering about that wonderful new life? Well, what do I have to say
Daytona Madison Rodriguez came into the world at 8:50 am Tuesday morning, July 25th, 2002. She weighed a whole 7 lbs and 18 ozs and was 19 inches long. She had the cutest darn clump of dark brown hair, and her little toes and fingersthey just amazed me to no end. But-- what really got me, way down in the pit of my stomach, was when she opened those big beautiful eyes to me .
Her eyes opened and looked at me for the very first time and I saw myself there. I saw trust and wonder and love all balled into one-- staring right into my soul. --I saw something that I cant quite put into words
--And so here I am just lost in these new emotions and just so full of lust for living.
Also though, there is that that which I knew would come-- the guilt the total heart-wrenching anguish. All this that I feel-- I have stolen from Dom. I took away his chance to see his 1st born come into the world. Even more, I took away the knowledge of just simply knowing he has a child.
But at the same time-- I didnt know what else to do? I mean, what-- what was I supposed to do? I was afraid, so afraid of his reaction. But I knew in my heart that nothing could ever turn him against me. Nothing-- except this
Will he be able to forgive me? Will he ever? Oh God, what have I done? Ive gone and really messed things up havent I?
Im gonna lose him. I dont wanna lose him God. I dont . I cant tell him, maybe not ever. They say what you dont know wont hurt you Maybe its true
But then-- Id never see him again. My fear is just talking out my ass here. I have only to overcome my fear and all will be right. It can be right
I am gonna make it right and when I doDom will be waiting
.Waiting for me
TBC
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